I had a lot of anxieties as a child, which included the common instinctive fears of spiders, snakes, wild animals, injury, darkness and ghosts.
Alongside these, I had other anxieties that were socially-related, such as feeling self-conscious when talking to others, fearing conflict, or concern about fitting in with my peers and being accepted. Although I managed to reduce some childhood fears by adulthood, many other aspects of anxiety persisted and sometimes had the effect of reducing my opportunities, as I would avoid anxiety-provoking situations.
I tried various psychological approaches, which included de-sensitization, hypnotherapy and NLP, but wasn’t satisfied with the results of these techniques in reducing my overall anxiety.
Finding a More Powerful Technique
Later on, I discovered Belsebuub’s work, which included a technique to reduce not only anxieties, but also many other negative or unwanted thoughts, feelings and emotions in a profound way.
I thought the technique was a little too simple when I first heard about it, as it contrasted with the psychological techniques I had learnt, in that it called upon forces outside of my own mind, specifically the personal inner Divine Mother. Although I’d had an interest in spirituality for some years, I also had a natural skepticism about certain approaches and theories, which I felt were too dependent on belief, rather than objective personal experience.
However, I remained open to this more esoteric approach and decided to explore the technique directly. The process of change took a while, but I found that by persistently applying the technique, I was able to reduce many unwanted inner states, including various anxieties, feeling freer and happier as a result.
It was interesting to see the change occurring in the ordinary events of my life, as well as encouraging and motivating. I could see that by consistently practicing the technique, I gained a greater level of freedom and was able to open up new opportunities.
Reducing My Fear of the Dark
I noticed some early examples of reduced anxiety in simple areas of my life during the time I started practicing the technique to remove unwanted inner states. I lived alone in a one-bedroom apartment, which had a small garden area at the back, and when I came home in the evening, I used to always check that there was no-one hiding there in the dark.
I knew theoretically that since I lived in a safe area it was unlikely that an assailant would be hiding in the garden waiting for me, but before I found the technique to reduce unwanted inner states, this logical information wasn’t enough to stop the anxiety from persisting. However, by applying the technique, I was able to reduce this small anxiety and gain a more objective view as well as feel calmer upon returning home.
A similar illogical anxiety had persisted from childhood, in which I sometimes felt anxious when alone at night, despite being in a locked apartment in a safe location. But as with the above scenario, the anxiety still persisted beneath my logical reasoning and I would often leave a light on, so that it was visible from the bedroom.
Again, by persisting with the technique to remove anxiety whenever I saw it, the childhood fear of the dark began to diminish and I felt more comfortable to sleep in a darkened room again, which also allowed for a better night’s sleep.
Reducing Social Anxieties
I also found the technique to remove lower emotions to be effective in reducing more social-based anxieties, many of which had persisted from childhood, despite morphing in various ways. For example, when in an unfamiliar area, I sometimes wandered around lost, rather than approaching strangers to ask for directions. This particular anxiety probably had different factors to it, such as not wanting to look silly or draw attention to myself, as well as wanting to fit in as a “local.”
However, by using the technique to remove lower emotions, this was a relatively easy aspect of anxiety to reduce. It was also much more beneficial to be without this anxiety, as it was obviously a lot more practical to ask for help to orientate myself in an unfamiliar area!
A similar social anxiety used to emerge when talking to people I was unfamiliar with, where I would babble to cover up my nervousness. Again, by reducing this anxiety, I was able to find a way to interact in a better way with people, which was not only more comfortable for me, but may have also had the effect of putting others more at ease, as the interaction became more natural.
On another occasion, I went to an open mic evening after work, as part of a fundraising event. I enjoyed singing and thought it would be nice to join in with the event. However, although I had taken part in group performances before and felt comfortable among my work colleagues, somehow a feeling of anxiety crept in prior to my turn, which I could feel building up in the area of my stomach.
I had noticed this feeling sometimes before, for example, when anticipating giving a presentation in front of a group at work. For some reason, it seemed stronger on this occasion though, so I worked on applying the technique to remove these unwanted feelings, which persisted for some time. Rather than giving into the anxieties, I did my best to clear my inner state, and gain a greater sense of inner calm, as opposed to a perpetual unease, before going ahead with the performance, which received some positive feedback afterwards.
Dealing with Conflict
Another music-related event also stirred up strong feelings of anxiety within me, although the context was very different.
At the time, I was very unwell and had been lying in bed for some days, curled up in pain, which became worse whenever I moved. Unfortunately, the tenant in the apartment below had some friends staying, all of whom enjoyed clubbing. For a few nights, they kept me awake with loud techno music in the early hours of the morning, on their return from the night club.
I hadn’t interacted with the tenant before and wasn’t sure how he would react to me asking to turn the music down. But at the same time, it was imperative that I rested. I had some apprehension about provoking a conflict, particularly as I thought it was likely that the group would have also had quite a few drinks during the evening. However, I worked on applying the technique to remove lower inner states and after gaining a more conscious state of being, continued to observe within and apply the technique as I went downstairs to express my point.
The tenant was reasonably accommodating on that occasion, although similar incidents persisted in the months that followed. I chatted with the tenant in the meantime, so felt a bit more comfortable about knocking to ask for the volume to be turned down. But I still wanted to work on reducing the anxiety that was coming up in anticipation of a potential conflict, as well as understanding the processes of that particular inner state in my life.
I wondered if I hadn’t been firm enough on the first occasion, or if I should have considered other options to handle the situation. However, it seemed that the situation could easily be inflamed if I acted without the correct judgement. So I used the technique of observing my own negative internal reactions and praying for their removal, in order to try and stay peaceful inside and state my case without provoking a conflict.
Looking back, the situation reminds me of Belsebuub’s question and answers sessions, where a caller described a situation in which he had a responsibility to fulfill a certain duty, but doing so brought up some anxieties about avoiding conflict.
I felt that doing what I could to maintain my inner clarity and calmness was essential in the situation, and although it was challenging, it eventually subsided after some time, when the circumstances of the other tenants changed and they stopped their clubbing activities. However, what I was left with was some valuable learning and insight into how that particular aspect of anxiety functioned in my life, as well as how much freer and happier I became without it.
Coping with Long-Term Illness
The illness I mentioned became a long-term issue and I had some concerns when I first received a diagnosis, as I knew the prognosis could be quite poor and have a significant impact upon my quality of life.
The illness did indeed affect my life in a profound way. However, due to my experiences in seeing the benefits of prayer in other areas of my life, I asked for guidance to find a way to recover and maintained a faith that the illness could be overcome, which reduced my fears about the future.
A challenging aspect of the illness was that many of its symptoms were unseen to others, which gave the impression that I was relatively fit and healthy. Sometimes this led to stressful situations, such as being persuaded to take on extra shifts at work, but finding myself pushed for time, or experiencing an increase in symptoms.
I continued to apply the technique to reduce anxiety when in stressful situations, such as when I was rushing for the bus. However, I realized that although the technique was beneficial, it was not a “cure all” to patch up wrong decisions and in the case with work, it was foolish to get into situations that I knew would put me under unnecessary pressure. I realized that the situation was not sustainable, as I had a responsibility not only to be well enough to do my job properly, but also to maintain my own health.
I initially found it difficult to set firm boundaries regarding what I could and couldn’t do, but felt that I needed to be firmer in not going over my limits and prayed for guidance to find the best way of dealing with the situation.
It was challenging, but by persisting in observing my own reactions, whilst praying for removal of negative inner states and guidance to act correctly, the situation eventually changed and allowed new circumstances to take place.
I feel that the techniques I learnt from Belsebuub’s work, to observe my inner states and ask my divine mother for their removal, gave me the essential tools I needed to deal with these situations as well as many others. Although some situations have taken a longer time to understand and overcome, the learning I have eventually gained from them has been invaluable.
I can definitely say that these tools have benefited me in reducing persistent anxieties, as well as other ongoing inner states, bringing as a result more freedom and peace in my life.